New Beginnings

AHH! Its been so long since iv updated my blog I think the last post I did was before school started and I specifically remember saying that I would probably not be writing as often since school would be starting and sure enough 3 months have gone by and no posts! So here it is an update! and boy is it a juicy one.

Where do I even start? Kind of overwhelming how quickly things happen through the course of 3 months. Ill start off with the small stuff.

• My parents are gone for 2 weeks!! surprisingly its nice to be alone at home. I cook (i mean: heat up frozen food), I clean, walk around nakey (ok semi nakey hehe) and get to do what I like with no "ANJELIKA YOU LEFT THIS OPEN!!" or "GO GET THAT!" etc... I do admit I miss my parents especially my mom soo much. I really take everything she does for me for granted. I miss her making me smoothies in the morning and chatting with her when she comes to work from meetings. Shes really the only person in my life that will always love me unconditionally and will do anything for me. As all moms do. Forget the little things your momma does that bug you, in the end she will love you more than anyone on the planet and will always look out for your best interest. So basically i miss her a LOT to say the least. ughhh and her cooking :(


• Things are not going so great with me and maurice. I dreaded the day he realized I was no longer a 10 year old. I hate that I cant communicate with him and it not be super awkward and uncomfortable. He has unresolved issues in his own life and uses me as a scapegoat. I already know whats going on and it makes me angry that he turns his anger towards me instead of focusing on his own problems. He is one of the most self centered people I know. Thats probably one of the least attractive attributes anyone can have. I guess I just hold humbleness in really high regard. My mother brought us up with the mindset that we should be selfless and humble in every aspect of our lives and i strive to do that on a daily basis. Im not sure where he decided to look the other way. Im having lunch with him tomorrow. Kinda dreading it to be honest.


• JESS LEFT!!! WE MISS YOU JESS!!!! Its kind of eye opening to realize how quickly people can go in and out of your life. Makes you appreciate your friends and family a lot more. What an amazing thing though to know you have the strength to go through such hard work and training while leaving your loved ones behind. That just goes to show how strong of a person you are Jess so proud of you honeybee!


• Calstate LA seems to be looking like the school ill be headed to for social work. I went to talk to an advisor last week. It was helpful but I got that ughhh scary butterfly feeling when you start something new. I want to just dive in and start in the social work field already but I know theres a ton i need to learn about and I still want my education. I have to just see it like this: by the time im 25 ill have my BSW. Which is still a good age. I just want to get started already!! I miss APU :( Oh well. Maybe I will go back for my Masters! AHH!


• Saved the best for last :). I have finally found a person I can truthfully say I have fallen in love with. Its crazy I remember long nights with my friends talking about how I never thought I would find a good guy. All the ones I had met and dated where gross and I felt like I would never meet someone I could see myself with in the future. Welp, I guess I was proven wrong. Richard is amazing. He is like the perfect feeling high heel :). He fits just right. You know you have a pair of heels that are your FAVORITE and theyre the cutest pair you own? They fit just perfectly and are like molded into your foot shape and size so you could wear them all day? Well, thats richard for me. Hes my steve maddens :). Hes sooo sweet and loving and always makes me laugh and smile. Hes intelligent and knows what he wants out of life. He has a big heart is so caring AND he treats me wonderfully and is such a sweetheart. I love that he appreciates me and sees past my flaws. He sees that I am a good warm hearted person and I love him for that! Good guys like that are few and far between and I know girls like us are few and far between too. DONT GIVE IN OR GIVE UP! guys DO like good girls! Not all guys are superficial shallow slimeballs. If you have yet to meet your prince charming please know he is out there and God will bless you. I guess God wants us to be really REALLY patient. That way we can appreciate what he has in store for us. Im trying to convince him to go to Search but I dont think hes feeling it just yet. Maybe for march :) I could write for days about it but ill keep it short and sweet.

So YUP! that about sums up the past 3 months. Christmas is just around the corner as well as a new year. I cant wait for the new adventures. 2012 will be good :) UPDATE YOUR BLOG!! You know who you are :)