I feel like I am EXISTING instead of LIVING

I saw this postcard on postsecret today. I felt instant gratification knowing I am not the only one that feels this way. Sometimes life can get so busy with miniscule tasks, everyday routines: school, work, eat, sleep. repeat. I am forgetting the big picture. I am here for something, I FEEL it. I've always felt a calling to help others, but why am I not doing anything? What is my purpose? I have always told myself to live life to the fullest, and yet I find myself hesitant when faced with any sort of challenges. Always contradicting myself and being too 'shy' and 'scared' to reach what I know I am capable of. I am not living if I am not fulfilling this tug on my heart to do what I am called to do. Time is going by so quickly and I feel like I have little to no accomplishments worth noting. No proud achievements, no internal gratifications. nothing.

So from here on out, what will I do to change this?

1. Stop being afraid to do things. Whether it be simple things like being more open and not shy, to bigger ones like applying to do community service, maybe seriously consider joining the peace corps etc.
2. Be more of a risk taker. I tend to not do things because I am scared of what the 'outcome' will be.
3. Speak up! I don't say whats on my mind because I fear judgment! who cares! Everyone has a voice, and so should I! (A girl was debating pro-choice, I am completely pro-life, yet I stayed quiet because I didn't want the spotlight and would have had to defend myself. But I should have and still regret not saying anything to this day)
4. LIVE. I feel like a robot sometimes! I just 'do', and don't think. I tend to forget all the wonderful things that surround me. I am so blessed. I fail to recognize and appreciate everything that I have.

Strangely, I feel empowered and AWAKE now that I'm done venting all this out :) Note to self: remember to LIVE instead of EXIST.